Is it really over?

It had been months since I last seen or heard from my parents...
I had tried calling them and SMS them, but  to no avail......
Hence I resorted to writing a letter and personally dropped in their house... They had read it as they told my 2nd sis about it...but still they didn't called me......

I am puzzled by their 360 degrees change of attitude towards me... I don't know what I had done wrong...To all onlookers, I did nothing wrong to deserve that treatment from them... Then why do they treat me in that way???

I already give in to every of their demands, whether its reasonable or unreasonable...What else do they expect from me???? I am EXHAUSTED, FRUSTRATED, DISAPPOINTED,SAD by their actions! Don't they know how much it hurts me? How deep the hurt is? Is this the way parents should treat own daughter? If its like that, then why bother to give birth to me in the first place? When I was still a young girl, my mum told me that I was conceived "accidentally" and she tried to abort me, but my dad objected as fear of her health at risk. Then upon giving birth to me, they told me that a rich couples love me alot & wanted to adopt me as they are childless, my mum got thought of sell to them at 10k, but again my dad refused... Am I really that UNWANTED??? Then maybe by aborting me or selling me away will be better than now treated by them in this way......

From young, I told myself to work hard to repay back my parents. And I did as I promised...I studied hard and went EXPRESS stream, then I was eligible to enter JC after my O levels results. I tried as hard as I could to study hard as I know that's the only way to have a better future... But what's the use, in the end, whatever choice I made, they just disregard & insist me going their choices, this turns me off, and causes me to forfeit my bright future.... But do they realize their mistakes after all these years? NO! Instead, making more and more mistakes... ... ...

My conscience is clear... I already did what a daughter should be doing...
If kinship is measured by money, then its not considered kinship anymore... I also won't want a kinship that need to be bought with money!

I just felt deserted into a corner that I was as if never existed in their world before....
This kind of feeling who can ever understand???
No one will ever understand... ... ...

I misses them, truly do......
Sometimes my tears will just dropped when thought of them....
Everytime I would wait with anticipation of their replies when I called os SMSed them, but it ALWAYS turn out to be in vain...
So much disappointment had made me fear of being disappointed again, till I don't even have the courage to call or SMS them anymore...As I don't wished to be hurt once again and again and again and again... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
Don't they miss me?
Do they or do they not?
Is it really over?
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